Juz Another Gal

What else can I say? I'm just another girl!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

The long weekend

Long time since I posted like this! 'cos this time I actually had a packed enough weekend!

Went for the gathering that many managers turned up for. It was.. interesting. Nothing I haven’t seen before, except for the great location. It was a private function KTV room inside the Chevrons at Jurong East. Nice room I tell you.

No photo that I can put up safely so too bad.

Reached at 7pm, landed up going back only past midnight.

I had class again. 10am – 5pm. Argh.

I had lousy canteen food again at SIM.

But Dearie sent me home after class. Which was also after his class. He had spent half the money I gave him for his birthday the night before - on a riding jacket! I haven’t seen it yet but I can’t wait to. I also learnt that the other half of the money will be depleting VERY soon. On his food and petrol. Blech.

Anyway, we went back to be greeted by a very cheeky Ki who much preferred to play with Uncle than me. When Dearie and I left the house for Marina Square, Ki was preparing to go shopping with my parents. Probably to buy yet another new toy.

Marina Square was picked because Dearie had a craving for oysters after seeing them on TV. I can’t stand those clammed stuff. I found out that Fins at Marina Square has fresh oysters so yeah, we had an early dinner there. I had soft shell crab pasta covered in chilli crab sauce. Nice leh.

We went to find Ah Chang at his shop upstairs. He kept asking me to buy jeans from FangFang’s shop a couple of shops away. I did go and take a look but…. Sorry ah…. Not I don’t want to buy… is I didn’t see anything that suit me leh….

I dragged Dearie around looking at little stuff. Went into the more expensive shops to see what copycats I should look for in my usual haunts that sell the almost-same-thing at a decimal space lesser.

I was really hoping to eat ice-cream and waffles but Dearie’s tummy wasn’t feeling too good after. Plus, we couldn’t find any waffles. 2 calls came in for Dearie – 1 to go Bedok 85, and another to go Bugis (which later changed to VivoCity).

In the end, we picked VivoCity where Patrick and his friends were. But we didn’t get to go into VivoCity (so no ice cream again). The plan was to go Marina South and wait for a few more people, then go rounding.

(Rounding means go around Singapore.)

In the end, we spent about 1-2 hrs waiting around in Marina South’s arcade (which wasn’t too bad), and I got to chat with the girls that were there (they’re soooo young…). Their helmets all crystallised so much nicer than mine. Heehee!

We finally left for Lavender’s Pig Organ’s Soup place. Food wasn’t too bad. The plan was to go rounding after supper – but one of the guy’s bike couldn’t get started. They tried to push start it but it didn’t work either. He was furious. Poor thing. No one wanted that to happen.

So no rounding for me. It was to be my first trip!

Went back home with Dearie in the end. We were exhausted. I can’t remember how early in the morning it already was.

Did I mention it was also officially our 5th year together on that day? :O)

It was a late start for us. Only got out of bed at 2pm. Oops.

Flute practice didn’t materialise. Sigh. The other girl couldn’t make it so we can only plan one another weekend. Too bad.

The plan was to go Bugis and look for waffles and ice cream, and for Dearie to look for a CD. Just when I was about to get ready, it had to pour.

We were hungry, so MacDonalds it was for us. By the time the rain ended, we were too lazy to move. Having had our fill, and in front of the TV watching all sorts of crap, we had become lumps.

His much awaited MotoGP was due to start at 7:30pm. We caught the 250cc race before that first. There was a call asking him to go over to one of the biker’s place to watch. In the end, the rest had backed out so Dearie wasn’t keen on going over. We landed up stuck to the sofa all through the race, till CSI Las Vegas and New York started – and ended. Which means 11pm. Wow.

The race was good. No adverts in between like F1. It was more exciting because they were very close to each other and sometimes bumped to each other too. And by bumping not all of them will fall. That is very amazing. Even if they did fall, they simply stood up and walked off easily.

Interesting on the whole. I’d watch it again if I remembered. But… each race only takes place once a month. What a huge gap in between.

After all that TV, Dearie got a call for supper at nearby Bukit Timah. So off we went! I got a Milozilla (is that what it’s called) and there was ice-cream in it!!! At last!!! Not exactly what I was hoping for but.. it had to do.

I got to meet his biking buddy with his gf, and another 2 bikers from his forum. Those 2 look older. Much older. So different from the night before when all the people were so much younger.

I tried to study at night but landed up face down in my book. I couldn’t take it and had to turn in right after that.

I woke up this morning knowing that a sore throat was coming. I’m starting to feel all heaty and irritated. I’m falling sick. Oh no…

This is on top of the fact that I’m supposed to sing this Friday at the company karaoke competition. I know that this year I wouldn’t have a chance to win (I’ve heard the rest. Trust me. I know where I stand.)

Still, I want to put up a good performance. Maybe I should just grab and MC and sleep in tomorrow. Tonight got class again. Shitty hell.


I never seem to do very well in big groups. Like the past 2 days, I just never got around talking much or anything. Maybe because it’s the first time meeting them. Just like when I meet the ones I’ve met online. I just listen and wait for questions to be thrown at me before I open my mouth.

I’d like to be able to talk more? But I realise I only do that during one-on-one meetings with people whom I’m familiar with.

I need more to talk about than studies and work. I’ve got nothing left to say about them other than I absolutely cannot stand studying. I can’t wait to get my life back on track again. Then maybe I won’t be so quiet any more.

I'm still messing around with Who Lives Near You and Friendster. See who's door I can knock. And welcome all the knocks on mine.

Count down to my birthday.
Count down to the start my long study leave.
Count down to the start of my exams.
Count down to the end of my exams.

Count down to the start of my life again.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Still not studying leh

I'm in deep shit. The exams are less than a month away and here I am still doing everything else but study.

Some more, it's only Wednesday and I managed to meet up with 2 new people!!!
1) Fabian - A pity he spent all his time trying to sell me a network marketing thingy. Will see if it's possible to be more of friends than a client relationship.

2) Derek - Fierce rider that make me realise how safe a rider Dearie is. Haha! Still, can't deny that I liked the thrill of speed. I'd definitely like to meet up with him again - he got so many stories to tell!!! So cool!

I like my cheap thrills. Fast bikes and meeting strangers in hopes of having them as friends.

No, I've not forgotten about my earlier encounters. I very much would like to meet them up again soon. Sigh. Time is not on my side.

To top it all off, I have some important KTV gathering happening on Friday night with the bosses. I'm going to be one of the 2-3 non-managerial staff attending. How odd huh? Nvm. I just go there and sing - and leech off some of their alcohol (which I know they'll be more than happy to have me drink as much as I wish, but hell no. I know better than to get drunk at such an occasion.)

On top of that, I'm probably having a flute gathering this Sunday afternoon. HOORAY! Haven't played in sooooooo long. Can't wait to try out new pieces and stuff.

PS: Marina Square food court has such a great view. How come no one tell be before huh?!?!

I'm still considering if I should ever go for a bike licence. I was told that it'd be better to get a class 3 first. Which I do think makes sense too. After that then see if I want to continue take class 2b for the fun of it.

1 month + more.... and I'll be freeeeeee... I'll ORD from SIM....... (notice I am not counting down to the exams but the END of the exams?!)


Monday, April 16, 2007

Horoscopes - mine and his

This is a super long post because I am commenting on some horoscope stuff that was forwarded to me. Taurus is me, and Aries is him. You'll know which were part of the mail and which are my own input. Happy reading!

T a u r u s
April 20 - May 20

A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line.
[I don’t know about my own facial features. Guess you’ll just have to see my photos to determine how true it is.]

She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.
[Yes. If I get mad, I will be furious. You don’t want to see me that way. Ever. But it’ll take a lot to make me so angry. Don’t worry.]

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.
[Long talks.. maybe that is why I don’t like talking on the phone? I think the only person who I am able to speak to hours on end is YL.
Yup. If I wanna do something, I’ll see it through to the end – unless given a damn good reason not to. One day in love with you, the next day not? Also rather true. And once it becomes "not", it’ll be extra hard to reverse.]

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home.
[That’s absolutely right! I love to have money – but only to improve my quality of life. I want to be able to enjoy my life, and that includes the people around me. I’m willing to pay to have a good time. If people around me are having the same, depending on my mood, I may just be generous enough to foot their bill too.
Love and romance.. well.. no gal can say no to those. Much as I’m practical, a little bit is good. Just once in a while will do. I do not mind staying at home, but I must have lots to do. Loads of TV, some housework, games, blah blah. Heeheehee…]

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.
[I luuurrve animals.
I don’t know about other women so no comparisons there. I think… in it’s odd way, this paragraph is hard to understand, but maybe that’s the only way to describe me and love. Difficult and confusing. Hahaha!]

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one. She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Love her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.
[Correct to say that I will not stay with someone whom I do not think is sincere. My freedom is important so limiting it will affect me – but then who wouldn’t be affected?! Honest to her love one? Definitely. Loyalty and faithfulness are the 2 of some of the most important things in a relationship. I will not compromise that as long as I am officially attached.]

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.
[Erm. Me? Stand out in crowds? More like I’ll get lost in them and never found. I like to dress up, and m y sense of style can be a little more loud than what I’m more suitable for, but heck. I dress as I please. Me get along in any type of crowd? If you consider standing around smiling to everyone, making eye contact but never talking as "get along socially", then yes, maybe I am. I’ll never be the life of a party, but I do enjoy going to them anyway. I like observing people. Did I mention I’m an oddball?]

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".
[Okay. This USED to be true until my insecurities surfaced this year (as you can tell from my escalating posts. I’m starting to wonder if it is because my mind has had the time and space to run free. Previously I was always preoccupied with loads of stuff I couldn’t be bothered to think if he would be flirting with someone else. I’d be working, studying, managing the band, and doing other stuff as well.
Keep distant from me and I’ll miss you more? Yeah. I guess. Works for most people.
Yup. I’ll never disappoint you behind your back. If you do not have what I’m looking for – in this case for me, if he cannot show me that he does intend to have a future with me – then yes, I will say it to your face and disappear.]

She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness".
[My first love.. hmm.. Is what I’m having my first love? I do not ever recall being in anything like this before.
I do care about what others think, to a certain extent, but more importantly, as much as I do things that make me happy, I care about how what I do will affect the people around me.]

She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.
[Lots of friends? I’m trying I’m trying. Friendster and wholives are great platforms. Need to use them more. I’m not a very secure person, but I am sure of my decisions. For example, I have said that after June I’ll be picking new things up – so I will. I’ll just go ahead and dive into whatever I choose.
Many men wanting me? WHERE ARE YOU MEN?!?!?!
Cute and funny? By that does it mean ugly and odd? If yes, that’s me. Cool and tough is somewhere in me too. Just need to bring it out.
Again, my dressing. Up to yourselves to comment. But no, I do not have interesting hair.]

She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up.
[I want to know what people think, and yes I may tease but it’s nothing personal. It’s not like my dreams and thoughts are not hilarious either.
I do not mind people asking me questions. I welcome them. That’s because I don’t know much of what to say, so if prompted, it makes me more at ease.
Yup. If you say you are going to pay me back, you damn well better do so.]

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.
[Very true. Don’t make noise about small matters. I’ll just brush them off as if I have bigger things to worry about, which I probably do. And yes, I can be very sweet since seeing the people around me happy is something I value – but only if you’re worth it. Win me over and you’d have me for a lifetime. Lose me, and I’ll never come back.]

A r i e s
March 21-April 19

Aries Man
He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel.
Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion.
You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling.
[Romantic? Nah. That’s not Dearie. But sweet in his own little subtle actions, yes.
His feelings are all very very very well kept. He never looks serious doing anything and looks too happy-go-lucky to seem to feel any emotions.]

You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business. He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often.
[Yup, he can’t care much about others business. Advice? To his good buddies who ask I suppose. And yes, respectful to elderly. But most people are anyway.]

He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important person for you. Once he is in the "Power Position", he will use his power gently. He is a good leader and "Gentleness" is one of his effective method for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal and satisfaction.
[I don’t know about this “control” thingy mentioned here. But yes, he’ll work hard to reach his goal – a Yamaha R6’08 – and he is very responsible towards his work. He works hard, but smart too. Yes he has made me very happy and I do realise he’s an important person to me, so maybe that’s why he is now taking the backseat. Hmm…]

Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think of him and want to get good comments or compliments.
[Think I ought to give more compliments? Haha!]

Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and keep up his "Image". One method of cover up you could easily notice is suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding.
[I don’t know if it indicates insecurity, but moodiness? Yes. If he goes into that mode – which I think most guys do actually – I generally try to leave him alone till he snaps out of it. I honestly have no idea how to deal with ANY guy who goes into that mode.]

This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him that you are "breaking up" , you better forget him for good because he will never coming back.
[Is this why he is just taking his time to decide if I’m the one for him? Hmm.. I’m not asking him to marry me NOW. But you know.. just give me an sign.. a hope.. that we will eventually. This can be by telling me, or even better, by starting to save up….]

He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2 hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any appointment.
[This is the funniest part. He’s always the one being late. But he doesn’t like waiting for others. Wait. Who does?!]

He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be in control of every things, every situations.
[I would like to be in such a position but… no leh. In singapore cannot. And he also will want me to work anyway. He can’t be bothered to compete with me. He likes to be in control? I can make him FEEL like that’s the case. Heehee…]

He like a "Classy Woman" ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will act very moody to show you instead.
[I’m not classy. Just an oddball. Good family? Yep. I’m not flashy I guess. Like I said, I blend and disappear in a crowd. I’d like to be a perfect housewife like my mum. All I need to learn is how to cook.]

He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what to do, right!
[I do not like acting hard-to-get. If I want to go out with you, I will. If I cannot, I’ll just say no. Eh. How to make him feel confident around me??? Why no specify one?! Haha!]

If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man will be like a chicken in your palm.
[A chicken in my palm. That is one very new expression to me. Haha!!! Doesn’t sound right, but it sounds like something I won’t mind.]

Has this post tired you out yet? muahahaha!!!

Dearie's birthday just passed. Gave him a photoframe with our photo inside. The photoframe was so cheapo so I used my remaining "crystals" to glam it up. Heehee! So proud of myself. Getting pro at doing those.

But obviously that wasn't the real gift. What kind of lousy present would that be?! Gave him $300 with a condition that it can only be used for a motorcycle jacket, a pair of gloves and/or a good helmet. It's not a lot to work with but it'll have to do. I'm already not expecting anything from him on my upcoming day. And the same expectations were for the last v-day and christmas too.

Time is flying by....

Our 5th yr together: 21st April
My 25th birthday: 4 May
My 5th yr in this job: 6 May
My exam leave: 10 May - 6 June
My 1st exam paper: 15 May
My final paper: 6 June

Happy first half. Terrible second half.

I am so so so screwed.


Monday, April 09, 2007

My Online Escapades

I'm sorry for not updating in a while. I just wanted to leave the pictures of my pretty helmet there a while longer. HAHAHA!

I need to fix 1 crystal on the "u" though. Accidentally scratched it out when I mishandled my helmet. Oops.

Dearie's birthday is this Thursday. I have class that night and the next day. Needless to say, I have to work too. I mean, getting a day off is not a problem, but he himself has class in the day I think. See how lah. Present? I already know what I'm giving since a month ago. Quite a "bo sim" present in my opinion. Too bad for him I'm not rich.

Like I said before, I've met up with 3 people online:
1) Nick: Kelian
Stays nearby so it's easy to meet up at central. Somehow always bored when he's not out. Reminds me of myself these days. Haha!

2) Name: Andy
Stays just opposite. Has a really obedient and beautiful dog. Looking for a partner - so if you're single and interested, I can hook you up! Genuine nice fella!!!

3) Name: Tommy
This guy cuts every corner there is on his bike... but... I still sit. HAHAHA! Fun mah. Are guys always this private about their life - or am I just too damn open about everything on myself. hmm.. I think the latter. haha!

There are a couple of others who I am looking forward to meeting up. I'm not looking for a new boyfriend, or a second one to two-time.. but since Dearie doesn't seem to want to care about what I'm doing, who I'm meeting or where I'm going, I'll just go ahead looking for new friends. I will, however, keep an eye out for those who can be a threat to Dearie. Someone who may actually want to snatch me away from him. Maybe only then will he step up his game and not take me for granted.

I don't need him to buy expensive presents, or to expensive restaurants. He never does either anyway. Sometimes just doing something simple and sweet - anything nice that you don't usually do - is enough. Wait till someone else comes along who'll do something like that for me.. then he'd better be careful.

Anyway, it's not that I've not messaged any girls. I have. Somehow the replies are mostly from guys. How strange. Otherwise it seems easier to hold a brand new conversation with a guy. Aiya. See how it goes. Funny how I'm just throwing myself out there waiting to be taken. Hahaha! But I'm careful. At least that's what I like to think.

Am I so hard to please? I just need affection and attention. Is it so hard to find someone who'll give me these 2?

Dearie... I know you love me. But you need to wake up and realise that if you don't show me that you do treasure me.. that although I'm yours you need to put in effort to keep me.. to show you care.. to show that I matter.........
.... I will find someone else who will.

The most hilarious thing is that Dearie doesn't understand it at all. He doesn't understand what he has to do. Or what is it I want. And no one can tell him cos it'll be plain weird to do so. Awkward to be exact.

Ah. One day at a time. See what happens next. Our lives are all like that isn't it? See how the story unfolds.

[To concerned friends: No, our relationship is not as rosy as it may seem - to me only. He's oblivious. But neither is it that bad or heartbreaking. I'm frustrated. But we're still ok. Really. :O) ]

This is not very flattering - but it's the only photo of the 3 of us that's recent. Ki was playing a fool and refused to pose properly so we had to snap at the best moment possible. This was the best that could be captured: