Me and tattoos

I have no idea what is my problem with tattoos, only that it's major. I absolutely cannot tolerate tattoos on the person I'm with - unless he already came with them. I just simply do not see the point in getting yourself pierced with a needle for a lousy symbol/picture that will stay with you till the day it turns green and disgusting and gets wrinkled with your skin.

At Bintan, YL mentioned getting a tattoo. Dearie cheerfully said he wanted one too, but I voiced my objection.

Last night, I had a dream where Dearie took off his shirt, and I saw a tattoo on his back. I pushed him away and refused to even touch him. When he walked over, I ducked as if I did not want to catch some poison on his hands.

He stood there.
I had my back to him.

He tried to come over and hug me, but I turned around and shouted at him: "You're f***ing rich is it?!"
[Please note that I have only used the f-word ONCE in my life. To have used it, I must have been pissed off to the max.]

He was shocked and I think he was quivering till he had to sit down. I cried as I stood where I was. I was so angry. Yet seeing how he reacted seemed to tell me that my rejection had meant alot to him - meaning I am important to him. I somehow got over it and walked over to hug him. Then it was pretty much happily ever after.

I certainly do not wish to see such a reenactment. As of now, I rather he buy a new bike than get a tattoo. That's how much I dislike tattoos (on my significant other only). If it's on others, it'll depend on what and where it's tattooed on. But that doesn't really matter 'cos I'm not the one who's going to touch them.
And I am certainly not in favour of a bike (he just skidded this morning). Rather he take e money go learn driving.

I don't know if this tatoo thing has got anything to do with my ex. I certainly hope not 'cos it freaks me out just thinking about that past.

But for me to have "forgiven" Dearie in the dream, and somewhat accept the tattoo thingy... I guess it just goes to show that no matter how stubborn I am, he's just as important to me as I am to him (in the dream lahz, in real life... hmm... haha!). Still, in the dream, I think I refused to touch the tattoo-ed area.
Disgusted? Turned off? I really don't know the real underlying reason.

At the moment I'll enjoy my tattoo-free dearie, and hope that he'll stay this way. I want to be able to hug him without worrying about "forbidden areas". Heehee!

See? I'm a weirdo.